Me Vs Growing wiser!!

I am sure there are hundreds of women who can relate with what I feel & the kind of feelings I am going through...after procrastinating the thought for a long time as I know that there must be thousands of blogs on the same line of thought...still I feel I should now go ahead & for nobody else's but my own satisfaction pour my heart out.

Well..soon I will reach a new pedestal of life where just because of the time passing by the way of looking at everything will change...also to tell the fact its not that I am getting married & thats why I feel the things will change around me.. may be I will growing old,may be I am growing better, may be I am growing fat, may be I am growing young or May be I am just growing wiser...

Usually when you are a kid you plan things for your future... what you want to do, where all you want to go? what kind of person you want to marry? how would your house look like...so on & so forth..
These days I have found myself questioning this quiet a few times ...Am I where I had thought myself to be? Am I doing what I had always planned to do when I am 25?? & to my disappointment I get a very confused reply..
But if I look back & think about it, I am an independent woman, doing what I wanted to do, I share an apartment with a very special friend of mine with whom I can share almost whatever I want to & can count upon her...I have my own kitchen where I have all the things which makes me happy(emphasizing on the kitchen bit as cooking is a kind of stress buster for me),I keep changing the earthy, pretty, simple handy interiors of my living room, I own my T.V.(which have been my one of the best companions always)..recently got an expected performance appraisal..I shop as much I want to & whenever I want to..
then why am I confused??? why cant I say I am happy.. why is this so difficult just to use the word I am happy...
I have been thinking on this for quiet some time now..& now I feel that may be with growing old & better your expectations from life take a leap & reaches to a corner where you are surrounded by so many external phenomena like your parents forcing you to get married..your relatives shooting cliched questions to your folks which in turn forces your folks to force you..your close friends getting married happily ever after...and yes of course friends giving birth to angels & demons?

While writing this blog even I am getting a clear picture & the clouds which have been surrounding me is getting clear. I know I am independent & with God's grace will get more freedom of thoughts financially & emotionally..but I have reached that time of my life when I know I am not old enough to be OLD but yes this is the phase of life when the societal pressures & things happening around you plays an important role in the way you think about your AGE.
People around me tell me that it is all about the way you think...I smile but I am not really convinced, I know I progressing in my life & ofcourse this is better way of telling that yes I am getting older & wiser!
Not so now we are spoiled by choice with a plethora of products to defy ageing. We can still look younger as we grow older. Availability, affordability and awareness have together contributed to the boom in cosmetics and cosmetology. The audio visual medium is ceaselessly bombarding the discerning consumer to make informal choice with sheer range of products benefiting the producer, retailer and consumer.Not that I am an aware woman & hence I dont indulge in such temptations? yes I do & to conclude I would say to make yourself feel good about getting OLD & yes WISER(with a wink) an anti ageing cosmetic is the remedy, it gives you a new zeal & enthusiasm to move on.Presently, masking the ageing process is very simple. The solutions are ‘dime a dozen’. Grey hair? No worry! You can color it natural black and get the youthful look. Receding hair line? No Problem! You can always weave the hair on the bald plate. If contact lenses have replaced bold spectacles, micro hearing aid is the answer to the bulky external projection. You have botox therapy to remove the wrinkles and the surgery to mop up the excess fat at the unwanted position of the anatomy. Precisely why, even grandmas’ look like aunties and the aunties’ much younger. The uncles are no exception. ‘Sauce for the goose, should be to the gander too!’ What began as fair and lovely for women, is now fair and handsome for men!!
Whatever you use Fair & lovely or Fair & handsome few dont's when this feeling of getting wiser, here it goes :
1. Never ever go to the places where you used to go when you were in college
2. Never go through the pictures thinking they are sweet memories
3. Never try flirting with any damn guy on whom you even have the slightest of doubts that he might be younger...for sure that guy is younger than you
4. Never compare yourself with your married friends(to all my married friends I love you guys)
the list will go on if only I dont stop writing...
Yes I have grown better & wiser ;)