The day I turned a lot bigger!!!

I know I am a big girl now.I guess the day I was born...I became a big girl. That is not at all funny all my readers..I feel I will die like this being 'big'!! Thats what I dreamt last night...I am on my death bed & I am a big huge lump...I hope by now my readers know by being 'BIG' what I mean.. though I know its nothing but self pity!!

Few days back was the day when I had once upon a time got the exposure of this world's sunshine. My eldest sister tells me when my mom got back to home with me in her hand wrapped in towel from the hospital...she tried to peep & was very disappointed to look at a baby with freckles all over her face & dirty looking black thing( at that age also she was a racist), I feel she envied me at that time because being the youngest daughter of the family & also being the daughter of the youngest son of the family all the attention suddenly was on me.Apparently till date she tells me that she hated me & never came close to me after peeping on the first day.Though the feeling is still the same.

Days passed by & years turned over, I have never ever failed to embarass my mom doing the most unimagnable thing under the sun..still I wish I could do the samer with my dad. I got the most pampering from my paternal grandma & maternal grandpa. I know what a combination..was unfortunate enough to not get the same from the other two counterparts as they decided to leave the world before the Big girl entered.
Slowly & steadily I grew old older & I feel now the oldest...my folks did not let me justify getting old ever....every year on my birthday I felt that I look older that what I am supposed to look at the age of 15 years & so on...& then started the time when people around me would ask me in which standard I am & then they were disappointed to hear that I was in 8th standard & not in 10th...because I always looked bigger!!!

Inspite of I being a very notorious child my mom was very happy with me as I have never thrown any kind of tantrums related to my eating habits...I have heard this from my mom so many times ...she would tell my aunts or somebody else..this one quality my daughter has & I am proud of that...She just needs a "tablespoon" full of butter, a "plate full" of rice, & just a poch of "two eggs"...this is a complete meal for her & even if I repeat this every other day..she would never have any problems..

One more thing which I have always heard from my relatives & family friends telling my mom ... Didi dont worry at all its all baby fat...a little older & she will loose all this automatically...well that unfortunate day never happened till now..baby fat remained the same...though the baby grew into a lady!!!

At time when I am frustrated just because I cannot wear a bikini at the beach or cant wear a sexy halter blouse with that sexy saree I have...& when I realise my dream of looking like Shilpa Shetty would never ever turn into reality...I wish at such situations why cant I get some severe disease like jaundice or dengue or something which will make me loose weight automatically & my baby fat would vanish....

Then another day I feel whatever it is...I know I AM BIG so what ..but I know I AM PRETTY...I wink at myself & decide to go out partying & have as many shots of vodka I want to have & as many chocolate truffles I can have.

However this year I realised how BIG I have become suddenly after the day when I came in this world...24..yes that is the number..how numbers make such a huge difference..me being a marketing professional, I understand the value of numbers. These are the targets allocated to all..achieving the target on a monthly basis would earn me a lot of perks...but reaching this particular number of life would suddenly change my mom's way of looking at me...I was clueless about this.

From that very day she wants to create a matrimonial profile for me...she thinks & discusses it with my aunt that other than being 'healthy' I am kind of perfect eligible spinster, she wants me be more open minded in case any proposal comes across me any day..
The whole idea behind writing this blog is to convey my dearest adorable mom...that mom with age if you are the same Mommaaa for me...why am I not the same girl for you???? I am the same BIG girl wrapped in baby fat!dont worry Mom its just baby fat...

Ya with achieving this particular number in life I have dreamt a lot..huge number of dreams...want to earn like a maniac without any obstacles & with your support through out...want to cruise the world with you ...want to own a house for us...want to serve the society...want to dream more & more..want to live,breath,eat a perfect life....want to be around the people who love me...want to celebrate life in each day... Mom I owe you what I am today..let me reach another level only with your support..have loved each moment of BIGGINESS till now...let me love the rest & let me be you girl always & let me be a little more Bigger!!!