Justifications!!

I went window shopping(the most painful act a woman can be asked to do) today. It was such a painful journey for me, every footstep made me feel I want to spend all the money I have for the month. Kept justifying myself that I would not fit into that dress which I am not even trying by the way...that hand bag is not my style eh!!!(I doubt if I have one...my friends : do I have one?)...oooopss that sun glasses would make my face look like a pumpkin...thankfully all the shops were not open by the time I landed there..still I could spend around an hour & half in that one shop. I came home empty handed with a heavy heart(I probably controlled my tears rolling down deep within).

Probably these are the kind of emotions which are exclusive to women & thats absolutely my judgement(heard about male chauvinism, here's female chauvinism). Another judgement which I would want to make is that if I get to hear this kind of story from a guy..I surely am allowed to write off the 'man' as a 'man'(I am sorry here for the gender bias).However there are certain things which only a woman can & should enjoy. Like in our society working late hours, & after being through the whole lot of professional pressures through the day, making dinner for the family is something which only a woman can enjoy(not to forget satisfying male ego), in the same way shopping, window shopping, being a shopaholic are few things which are for woman.

For any & every woman shopping till they are drop dead works as an anti depressant.It gives a peculiar kind of high to every women.It can be compared with the pleasure of reaching the climax for any woman (for all curious minds keep the spirit & read the article). I am pretty sure on the fact that any woman can shop from a meena bazaar to a flee market to a designer showroom, whatever they shop, whenever they shop & whatever amount they spend, they have enough reasons for that(may be the neighbour's dog died & you needed a dress for the funeral).

The timing was perfect when I started penning down all these thought, my best friend from UK called up, there was this distinct thrill in her voice which probably I can understand as I am also this much thrilled when its a good & lucky day for me. Well I feel the urge in her voice to tell me whats going on..& probably she wants me to ask her...but I tell myself I wont as it was not a good day for me....not at all, I did not lighten even a little bit of the heaviness of my wallet..what a waste..unlucky day!I curse myself & then I tell myself that nope I needed to save it for the month & there was nothing which I could get today(I am lying to myself & I know it)..between all these thought she tells me that in London(to be noted)..she saw a sale at a cosmetic shop & she started drooling over & got body butter & body scrub( which I again consoled myself " they are of no use"). Then with no reasons she justifies immediately(as if I paid for the products), "I never spend on myself here, it is very rare". I made myself understand that these are useless things which would not make any difference & then I decide finally on a very strong & serious note " to hell with everything I am going to shop like a crazy woman tomorrow...& forth mostly I would get the scrub & body butter"

P.S. : "I am crazy shopaholic like 'any other' woman ('justification' comes along)"