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This is the time when I dont feel like putting my mind into anything..I know I need to..but I fail to make people around me understand that I do not feel like using my mind...

I do things which my peers do not..weird things..developed weird liking for unusual things..& whatever I am writing right now all these words are my own..nobody made me feel this way...but when a person does things which are unlike his or her age group..might be after a while the person starts feeling this way...my friends at times laugh & admire me at the same time...so which one should I pick???? I choose to pick the one which makes me feel miserable...dont have an answer to why I do that...I cook, I clean, I do gardening, I read articles on face make up & all that makes me feel as if I am a house wife..
Well with no offence ...I never wanted to be that... then what has made me do all this???dont know just feeling that this should not have been the ideal situation & I cannot just blame any body for my liking towards these things which are not meant to be liked...
I am a lump...I am a spoilt brat...am I?? however thats what many around me feel...who made me that???

I know this is just a pathetic & stupid blog I have written...I doubt if I should publish it or not...but I want to as I want people to know how stupid & dumb I am I want them not to expect anything from me...
this is what I am!!!